The Tragic Life And Suicide Of Jesus. What It Meant for Jesus. What It Could Also Mean For Us

 It's really cringe-worthy

when people cite Jesus's suicide as some ultimate expression of love.

No matter if it really happened or not,
the story has him intentionally getting himself killed,
because "God"-voices in his head pressured him into it.

He even stayed up late one night, begging the voices not to make him do it.

It's a story of a psychologically broken, habitually homeless, jobless, self-medicating, bipolar schizophrenic.

He wasn't able to make peace with the rejection he felt from his real dad.

His religion was likely part of the initial cause of his mental illness in the first place.
But at least it offered his fractured mind a surrogate father.

That father existed only in his head.

It/"He" was the manifestation of an unhealthy relationship he had with himself.

He needed validation from a father.
And he would go to any lengths to get it.

The dichotomy of personal values, between the imagined "Father" and "son" was a stark contrast.

The son was their culture's equivalent to a liberal hippie.

"Father" is a staunch Totalitarian conservative.
He also checks off literally EVERY box on the Diagnostic Criteria for Grandiose, Malignant Clinical Narcissistic Personality Disorder;
and clinical psychopath with a rage disorder.

Among the very few things "Father" and "Son" agreed about
was a shared love of Father (Go Dad!)
and of religious communism.

Jesus' version of it was all about peace, and brotherly love;
except whenever he was angry.

Also, it was only about love among the Jews;
at least, whichever sect of Jews he considered to be the real Jews.

His missionary work was only about the Jews. Those were the only "neighbors" he rambled on about.
Rumors about his message of "love" to "the whole world" don't appear anywhere in any of the stories.

Meanwhile, ...
Father's version of communism was all about seeing people compete for a place in his Celestial Kingdom
as eternal praise bots;
and all for his own glory.
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What the "Jesus" character ended up doing
was an ultimate form of self-abuse;
with several purposes:

1. Secure permanent validation/accepted from "Father".
Screw Joseph. Who needs him anyways?
Jew-God is my real daddy.

2. Secure approval of peers through martyrdom.
Aren't I great?

3. In case that doesn't work, there's always the emotional manipulation of "I hurt myself for you. The least you can do is want to be in a relationship with me".

4. A final grand gesture of martyrdom ALSO serves as a platform upon which to be superior to his enemies.
Aren't they awful (for letting me manipulate them into killing me)?

5. Encourage (and even obligate) everyone to emulate textbook narcissism's highest "moral" ideal:
Evading personal responsibility for our failings and transgressions, by scapegoating all responsibility to an innocent martyr ... who becomes "guilty" in our place.

6. Silence and satisfy the God-voices which had been so tormenting him into surrender.

7. Die for a "cause"; so that his Jewish religion can hopefully be shamed into realizing how much growing they still need to do.
 I actually agree with this motivation;
just not with the alleged means of going about it.

8. Only stay dead for the weekend.
That may not really be a "sacrifice", but who can say no to the (mentally ill) "promise" of waking back up with power over all others, wealth, glory, super-powers, eternal life, perfect health, and lasting approval from Father and peers?
"Daddy says he might also let me pop into Hell later, to literally force all my enemies onto their knees, so that I too can feel maximally great and powerful. "
Take that! All you people who don't win the faith-lottery!

9. I dunno. Appointment calendar's pretty clear after that.
Maybe learn to play the harp or something.

10. There's not really a #10. But I know religious people like lists of ten.
So let's just copy/paste the 10th commandment from the Hebrew Ten Commandments (the only list written on stone, called the ten commandments, and which were later placed in the ark of the Covenant):

"Though shalt NOT
boil a baby goat in its mother's milk".